sweetcake007

my story at the moment is that my boyfriend abuses me and wont let me leave him he forces me to do things i don't want to do like sex i am anorexic every time i look in the mirror i know i can always be better but then i think who am i doing this for? and the answer is i'm unsure i just think maybe people will like me more and i know thats stupid my bf puts cuts all over my body and i'm not sure what to do with myself i just want to make people happy when i get to be alone all i do is touch my arms feeling the cuts that he left me with all my friends have betrayed me i know i need help but i don't want to admit it to myself my family docent care they say that when i'm old e nuff i have to leave there house everyday i am reminded that i am a stupid child that should never been born for clothes i go to thrift shops my parents hit me a lot as a kid and would also rape me i am scared of my parents. when i go to school i look fine because of make up and other items i walk to school and i do everything myself all i want is to be herd! my life is hell feeling the same pain every day and night should i just end it now? or let myself be torchered for a little longer all the people who have cared for me are dead or wish i was dead and yes i know life can always get worse but i'm not sure how i am scared for my next birthday what will happen to me? my boyfriend will probity take me... i don't do self harm other then making my self throw up i have enuff harm in my life i am stuck in the middle of hell

thanks you for reading remember it can always be worse...i think